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Bismillah,
Here's the thing. All these while I've been putting up myself in so-called standards of what I've should behave or act.
Standards that I agree to commit with.
Perhaps some of them are ;
*I must look as if I am having fun around people*
*I must try hard to fit in*
*I must not be nervous--eventhough I am!*
*I should not say no, even if I know that particular person are being dishonest to me*
*I must help people as many that I can though I am jeopardizing my time*
And the list goes on--presumably on my behaviour during presents of people.
It occur to me that I need to get rid of those rigid self expectation. Been thinking that those strict rules just gives me pressure as well as turning me into a hypocrite--and not being me in return.
That's it.
I should take a chill pill--give myself some space that I deserve. Because I know if it wasn't me, there is no other people would. Imma gonna make a *permission list* whilst breaking up with those rigid list hoyeah \m/
My Permission List
I give myself permission to:
//say no to others,politely--I don't want to offence anybody.
//decline invitation from friends if I feel don't want to.
//express to others my need to have some time to think or made decision.
Brrr so far those are what cross into my mind. Will update the list later.
"To find the good life you must become yourself"
Yours truly,