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Bismillah.

Today I come across with Mat Luthfi's newest video -- Sebelah Sayap. I could say splendid directing and story line. The message really hit me. Somehow I could relate with the video to past events happening in my life.

What touches me truly would be,
\\I should not run from problems. Be brave and face them instead.
\\Some people are not thinking as equally as we are. Some things that are easy for us may be difficult to others --that's come the importance of empathy.

I realize that for the past years, definitely I had done decisions that were selfish. Ignorantly, I defied others feelings and emotions; I failed to put myself in their shoes.

Somehow now, I did experience some situation that are really -- I think not fair for me.

And boom it hits me -- this must be reminder from Allah that I may had wronged people during the past. Honestly, I don't believe in karma thingy but I always did some muhasabah every time bad things happened to me. That moment I knew all the shortcoming I am experiencing must be message from Allah; to remind me of Him and how He long for His servant's plead and cry.

That moment I knew.
I need to be husnuzhon and increase more of my supplication to Him.
It's always been this prayer -- Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segalanya bagi ku. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah pemilik hati ini;You are truly The Turner of the heart Ya Rabb. Make my heart stay with You no matter how weak I feel and how devastated I feel. You are the owner of the Heaven and Earth. Every single things that happen truly are by Your permission and You know the best for me, Your weak servant. Amin.

Time has no rewind button. What's left is Hope -- Hope to become a better person; a more reflective human. The most important things is istiqomah and renewal of my intention everyday-- this is my struggle.

Until the last breath, insyaallah.

"Hope and Fear is like a pair of wings. We need both to fly"

Yours truly,